11/02/10 Starts off well, but ends slightly bad...

Hey people...? Huh? I hope they are still people following my blog though I have been away for quite a few days due to tiredness after work and also lots of stuff to do. I was really keen to try and update my blog each and everyday but somehow, there are just times when I have to really put something else on priority. For example, rest and sleep. =) I have been suffering from sleep deprivation as previously, I would say that I didn't sleep much during exam seasons. Then now, I am busy working and I have to wake up seriously early to fetch my mum to her school to work at 7a.m. Seriously, how would I be able to get enough rest duh? Anyway, I don't mind... It's okay... It's a good chance to build good relationship with my mum, talk to her and guide her.

Today, was supposed to be a very good day. Come on, I get my pay and angpow even before the new year and the last day of my work. It was a good pay too. However, just when things seem to be so wonderful and lady luck seems to be surrounding me... Bad things start coming after me! First, my mummy's old classic car that was bought for a few thousand eventually broke down today. I was the one driving, and yeah.. Some of my friends would surely say it's because of my driving skills and my little brother might be saying some too. However, I wouldn't mind if they say anything about it but somehow, I heard something nasty and hurtful from my own mother and brother. Saying that she has no car to use during Chinese New Year. When I tried to call and seek help, I received bad response. I am seriously vexed and frustated because I might not be able to go to work or probably waking up even earlier to take the public bus to go and work. I felt that I was deeply blamed for the car's problem. I was wondering,was it really all my fault? Or I should say, am I at fault or that car was faulty? Anyway, in the end, me and my mother is fine after we talked it off as I asked her not to blame me, and she apologized too. As for my own eldest brother, I don't know what am I supposed to say. Maybe that's his characteristic. Seriously, disappointed with what's going on today.

Next, my boss's mother, who used to dote me and my siblings a lot when we were young has just passed away. When I reached there, she has already gone. She was lying there peacefully. All out of a sudden, one of her daughter came in and only found out that her mum has gone. She immediately rushed to her mum, start talking to her mum and try waking her up. She did a lot of things, shaking her mum, talking and yelling at her mum so she would wake up. You guys can start imagine that kinda situation that you can see in TV series when someone you loved has gone? I couldn't hold my tears any longer as it grows so heavy. My boss was pretty calm. I seriously respect him as he is always that calm. My lady boss was there crying. So is my mum. This kind-hearded old lady that dotes us so much, wasn't really a blood-relation relative of mine.She was so called my relative due to a lots of thing that happened in the past when I wasn't even in my mother's womb. Yet, they dote us a lot, so is my boss and lady boss, their whole family treated me really well.

What a day... Well... I think I better get myself on the bed and take a good rest. Things will be better... I will be stronger... God would guide me and hold me even tigher... Hang on... =)