[30/04/10]

I'm back again to my beloved blogosphere.. The place where I would occasionally shares my secret, feelings and all the deep thoughts that crossed my mind each and everyday.. So, I guess today I would be able to type seriously fast as I have warmed up my fingers during daytime helping one of my all time buddy with his assignment. In just around 2 hours, I have eventually brainstormed and went thru all the references in a glimpse while typing out probably close to 2000 words? Gosh... My eyes were so heavy at that time as I have freed myself from assignments for quite some time... Anyway, it's worthy to help a good friend =)
Basically, helping my friend with his assignment is what I have been doing the whole afternoon before I fetch my boss's children back from school. Watch a great movie ; Iron Man 2 with my friends too. Not going to go too detailed yet, will save it for another day. Felt kinda sleepy now.

As usual, everyday I would be waking up around 10 am and then get myself prepared, stuffed something into my stomach and then go fetch the children to school. Sounds like I'm a good daddy bringing my own kids to school har? Yeah man.. You guys are right! I hope I would have such a good time to fetch my children to school next time... :) Today, just as I was waiting for them to finish their class, I saw some of the kids who are playing basketball at the basketball court. Suddenly, all the images of me myself back at primary school appeared. WOw... those nostalgic moments... Hahah... Gonna go on more detailed by then...

Lately, I guessed I nearly lost a very good friend whom I just knew. Perhaps, I went too close and crapped too much. I just wished that things would turn out to be better soon. A lot of times, whenever I came back hometown, there are just some kinda bad stuff aka shits happening. Yet, I knew that it would always remind or teach me something. However, this time I hope that things would just work out and great things gonna come out of it. Why? Well, I shared with the friend whom I helped him with assignment about this. He said maybe I should've just stayed at KL and he burst into great laughter. Oh yeah... maybe I guess..
I have never been single for so long ever since I started dating... How did I make it O Lord? Haha...
Probably, I am still under the moulding process... More to go... Temperature rising... Pressure increasing...
I'm gonna make it... When it's all done, everything will come at its own time and own pace.. No worries...

I don't know why but I seriously cherish that gifted friendship... I hope I won't lose it and it would just come back soon... I don't really know why but I cared a lot about friendship these days... That's what made me stronger and becoming more sharp and sensitive too I guess... In short, it helps me in growing.. It's just like a cataylst in a chemical process... I hope we will be fine soon =) I'm not thinking anyhow far, just simple. Friends. Because? Because I don't dare to think of anything else too actually. My mind is a little bit blur right now, kinda sleepy perhaps.

Tomorrow gotta wake up early and send my mum to work while I gotta come back and get prepare for my work too. Gonna put on my formal clothes in my leather shoes, dress up nicely and go to work. It's gonna be another new beginning. I'm going to do well in my life. Things gonna turn out well real soon.
After coming back, I feel that I kinda lost control of my life because a lot of things just sort of slip out of my control. I will catch it back, manage and control it well in the shortest time.
This reminds me of something, which is what I always remind myself...

"In the road to success, it's not the matter of the frequency of failing and falling during the journey, but it's the matter of the period of time you take to stand up from each and every failures and falls"
What does it really means? You want to be successful in your life? Be prepared to fall and fail.
Then? Learn how to stand up once again in the shortest of time.
Scientifically or mathematically, the probability of being successful in life is inversely proportional to the period of time you take to stand up from any failures and falls in your life.
So, I know that there are few things currently in my life that doesn't look so well but I know that I am gonna tune it back soon, and lead a better life.. I just gotta keep on thinking, believing and putting actions onto it.

Though I might felt weary, discouraged, sad, down , tired and weak at times... Yet I know.. All I need... Yeah...
I just need more strength. I need more encouragement. I need You.
All I want is...
Good night...