Bad day? [Entering 3/5/10]

I am already back at my hometown for one week... Well, I think it is because I have not come back for a very long time, that's why I don't really feel comfortable ever since the day I am back.. Sometimes, I guess I shouldn't blame on the environment but just blame on myself for being lack of a strong self-discipline and not self-motivated enough... Or perhaps, life wasn't really good when I came back?
Life is always full of ups and downs everyone.
Yet, I am still breathing, standing, and enduring this battle =)

Life has been good since the first night despite that I don't left much cash with me and the bank ATM is no longer available, and I don't have my own car to drive around.. I was blessed with a free dinner! =D
Later on, these few days have been seriously being poured with lots of free coffee, free meals, and free pool games too. Ain't it good? Today, I got my monthly allowance too.. Besides, I am going to get my salary very soon next week right after I finish working and before I set back to KL.. What else? Mum even helped me to tell my eldest brother that I need a car at KL... Yeah man.. All these are just so good...
Anyway,there are some bad things too of which I thought I would be able to share with someone...
That friend came at the right time, but my computer got some problem...
By the time my computer is okay, she's too tired to talk...
Seriously, I don't even know who to talk to...
Sometimes, I was thinking probably I need another blogosphere of my own that nobod would ever read and knows so that I can really speak out everything in my mind and let go everything there... Haha...
Anyway, maybe it's not really necessary after all.. Here would b the place I am going to share everything....
So, read it at your own risk =p

Daddy wasn't really happy when he heard that I need a car at KL as I am spending a lot in terms of transportation that seriously runs me dry financially.. My brother was thinking oh yeah perhaps I really need one.. Dad wasn't talking much to me and not mentioning bout this matter too.. Instead, he just came in the room and say he would be outstation for many days... My bro doesn't talk to me at all too... So, how?
At the same time, I have my own plan to own this car actually.. I plan to have a normal Proton car? A car which cost less than RM10K so that I would be able to finish paying it off in the shortest time...I wanted a car that I would be able to afford and pay off my brother as soon as possible.. I am not going to take anything free from them... And.. I don't wish to give any burdens to my family... Yet, Daddy is surely thinking that I would end up like how my brother use to have a car at KL..


Seriously, for those who are following me, or some of you who are my friends for so many years, and those who are with me at KL for quiet some time.. Am I a guy who goes clubbing? Am I a person who always wander around and never spend time studying? Am I son who never knows how to be considerate towards my family's situation and never being fifial and respect towards them?

I have to say NO. There were times when some of my friends were telling me that, why are you being so considerate and yet never tell them your problems and needs? What do you want me to answer? Hahaha...

They are my loved ones... Never would I wanted them to have any worries about me, or problems nor stress. Mummy told me I shouldn't tell Daddy I need a car because I wanted to start teaching tuition that would allows me to earn pretty much and to pay car installments easily... That's because my Dad might just stop giving me my monthly allowance or maybe giving me less... What should I do? Hm...
I guess I should talk more to God... Right now, I seriously wish to just keep myself quiet... Not hearing anything from anybody else... I just need someone...

Tonight's blog somehow seems to be a little bit of moody... Anyway, I will stand up strong... Nothing gonna beat me down... There's one thing to remind everyone...
"There are always ups and downs in life. It doesn't really matters much. When things seemed to be out of control,it's time to learn how to take control and not being beaten down. Human beings can anytime disappoint you, but never be disappointed with God. You will never know what He is thinking, unless you believe in Him, and let Him lead you through the tough times."
I would just continue to hang on, and believe that a lot of things is going to turn out to be real good and blessings gonna pour into my life so abundantly.

"Father in Heaven, I am relying on You, believing in You.. I am gonna stand strong for You.
With Your strength, nothing gonna beat me down... all these things that did not kill me, would just make me stronger and go shine for You. "