Well well well...I finally found myself a time to fill up my blogspot...I have got almot 1 and a half hour to go before my Taekwondo class starts...I have stop learning for roughly 3years plus...So whenever I go back for training,all I could feel is PAIN...Haha...All my muscles are stiffen..I need some time to shape up myself back to be fit enough to fight I guess...Hm....It's been a tiring semester...Not much time to rest I have to say....Almost everyday I have got something on hand to do...Maybe that is why I never thought of having a new gf after breaking up for one month plus plus...?
Just finish my test today...Haha...My lecturer thought I was peeping at others' answer...but in the end,only she realised that I was actually helping out my friend...haha! It was pretty funny...because she have been staring at me for quite some time...but she never knew that I was actually helping out my friend...I hope she did not have a glance at this post at all! If not,me and my friend is going to be in deep shit! Haha...!
Right now,all my coursemates are gone. They either went to buy present for one of our classmates,then they are some who went for movies...I bet that they are a lot who would be lying on their warm bed right now. What bout me...? Hm...FB-ing and Blogging...And wait as the time reaches 5.30pm so I can go and release my stress at my Taekwondo class...Anyway,i think I might not continue to learn my Taekwondo class at college anymore after this semester...I find that it's a waste of time anyway...Undeniable by learning in a centre I would be able to get the latest information...but somehow,I found out that my course is just way too busy...I shouldn't get myself intact with such a thing of high discipline...On the other hand,I want to go for my worship band audition! I want to be part of the church worship band!
Talking about worship band...can't forget when I first started out as a pianist for my church back in the year of 2001...I was just a 12 years old boy who eventually look like someone who is 18...bla bla bla...that's not important...I started playing simple beat which then I slowly improvise most of the songs and make them WOW! haha...I enjoy doing it...I can only say that it's a talent given by God for me...Just imagine a guy who don't need much practices... "Give me the book or the score,I will play it for you" Oops..that's what I would say when it comes to the time when I was kinda...Frustated! Yeah...Haha...Lots of people love to do things last minute...So I got myself immuned to such a situation where people would give me the songs that they wanted to lead during the Praise and Worship session of the service at the very last minute..What to do? You are the pianist of the whole service,so you got to play it no matter what! Anyway,I always pray to God...I remember that the first time when I was a pianist,I was shaking and trembling! Haha...But,this is how I grow...And this is what actually helps me a lot....Whenever I met with emergency situation,I never got so panic anymore...I always know what to do and how to do~ =) Thanks God for that..
I don't know if many people follows my previous blog of which I said that I was rather moody? Hmmm....I started to see the true colors of many people around me...A lot of people are trying to get the attention of others...A lot of people are trying to gain sympathise from others...A lot of people are just living out someone by wearing the mask on the outside...There are people who are not brave enough to let people know who they really are...See,sometimes I was wondering how these people live? At the same time...it made me think back of what kind of person am I?
Very often,whenever I speak English and less Mandarin,there are certain people who are close to me would say... "Wah...speaking...LCLY..." "Act nia..." Sometimes I am thinking....I am now living in a different environment...I couldn't speak Cantonese so well...People who is always with me wish to speak better English...As for me,I love English! So what's the fuss of speaking English? Seriously,I believe that I got what it takes too...So, I speak English and eventually I get so used to it...Therefore,people around me,stop pointing your fingers on me! Take a look at yourself...maybe you need to brush up your language and the problem is on you not me~ No offense~
I think it has been almost more than a month I have not gone back to my hometown,Batu Pahat...Really miss my parents...my brothers...and of course,my grandma! Oh...I nearly forgot..my lovely Cocker Spaniel - CHOCOLATE! haha...I have not bath it for a very long time...I hope somebody at home is doing the job to clean it! =) I miss all the food at my hometown...don't really have much time for it whenever I go back... *sigh* Hm...anyway...I hope to find a time to go back soon...at the same time,I hope by the time I go back,I no longer see anymore quarrels going on...I am so far away from them...I couldn't do much...I am always busy with my stuff over here...Well my brothers over there were all busy with their own stuff too...I was wondering how long would my family last? Or would it really ended up broken into pieces as what I have seen through my senses?
Haha...somehow,I always felt as though..or should I say I always wanted to have some kinda supernatural powers...I always foresee things...Things that would happen around me...Sometimes,I can even differentiate whether it is only nightmares..just a thought...or it is coming...Cool right? But not everytime accurate la..Sometimes will slack also...hiaks hiaks...I always tell my mum..."Mummy,one day I would surely end up working when I am studying..." It somehow happens during my form6 period...I work day and night...nobody knows~ =) This made me think of there was once,when I went back JOhor for my semester break...I was not at home most of the time....and all out of a sudden...my brother sms me and say "Where have you been whole day long?!" I was thinking... "WTF..?" I was so tired working continuous for a few days since my semester break and nobody knows. If outsiders think that I go out and have fun,it's alright. But come on, my own brother...who have been living together with me for the past 20years...don't they know what kind of guy I am? A guy who would even change their bedsheet for them when I know that they are busy! A brother who would clean up the whole house hoping that they could have a comfortable house to stay on...But somehow,I was wondering...do they appreciate it and miss the days when I am around? Anyway...everything is different from now onwards....I found a place where I am going to build my dreams...So I guess I have to learn to do things even differently...I couldn't always hold back so much for my family? I need to learn to face the reality...and do things like a man...I could no longer be like the boy who always cry when daddy/mummy is quarrel and brother is shouting...But somehow, I think it's time that I learn to help out too ba.... =) There's a lot of things to learn...There's a lot of things to face....and I know...God is with me...
For the past 20years,I have faced a lot of things that I never thought I would...and others have not experienced...
You don't ask a poor man how to be rich... =) That makes no sense...
So I slowly found the value of myself...I have experience that people does not have..and therefore, everyone is special...Because I myself knew that there are certain things in life that I never faced before...Time to know more and more! Alright...I think today I read too long...haha... XD Time to get something stuffed into my stomach...hUngry.....grrr....Alright...To be continue....
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