19/03/10 Full of thoughts

I have been having a seriously tighten schedule that made me always feeling and trying to stop down, and take a rest. However, I believe that this year, I'm not gonna have so much rest. Right now, my life is just like running an endurance. I'm running against time. Time and tide waits no men. There are just too many things to learn, to overcome, to finish, to acquire, and to explore. Seriously, I guess I have the same thoughts as Einstein of not sleeping so much? Hmm... Right now it's 3 a.m. I'm still here, feeling so fresh after having a warm bath of which I thought would activate the mood to sleep but ended up, it makes me feel so awake. In this endurance, the only thing I can think of, is the goals and visions that have been set. I'm already left out too much behind previously. Now, I need to learn to catch up, and then overtake those who have already ahead of me so much. It's gonna be tired.. For a vehicle to overcome another vehicle on the freeway, it's never easy. How much of acceleration has to be done? How much of force has to be overcome? How much of frictional force that is oncoming and against at your moving direction? Another picture of my life right now, is just like a motorbike's race. At one of the corner, I lost control of it and then I went out of track. However, luckily, just right before I crush to the side or anything else, I managed take control of my machine and get up on time. Therefore, right now, I would have to try to get back to the race. It's not gonna end so soon, so I still have time... to get back to the race, to overtake back those in front of me, probably just like how Valentino Rossi always do, and then win back the race! It's not easy, it's tiring, it's energy consuming, but I'm not gonna give up. God's with me, I'm gonna get back and win the race =)

Lately, I started blogging with Chinese too. It's fun. It's another way for me to express my feelings and thoughts too. Seriously, I love Chinese a lot. The Chinese culture is just so amazing and impressive. From a phrase, it signifies a thousand thoughts. Just a few words, it could reflects the total characteristic of a person. There are just so many things to learn, and I'm just so hungry for it. Undeniable, I'm more proficient in English as compared to any other languages that I knew, and also I'm better and more than average when compared to people around me. However, in Chinese there's a saying, 一山还有一山高。。 There's always someone better than you. It never ends. After all, I believe that no matter how good I am, my God is somehow the best. For what He thinks and does, it is always far beyond my imagination.

I don't know what's really going on with me. It just seems that I have really changed. The way I think is different from how I used to. I started to know how to really reject something, especially relationship? I have not been dare, or choose to step into any relationship lately. I chose to reject. High probability is that, it is just like 黄小虎-没那么简单's lyrics..or you can drop by at YouTube for her song (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQntw6TWJcc)  已经过了爱做梦的年纪。。或许，我的思想变了。。。我不再追求一段轰轰烈烈浪满爱情故事。。我要的是一段被祝福的真爱和幸福。。。
Suddenly feel like writing in Chinese.. Haha... I'm going to be 21 soon.. Probably in 2 months ++ time.. I faced what I don't wish to, or probably not supposed at inappropriate age.. Somehow, I guess that's why I think more than others? Look older than others? And it sounds nice when people say "You are mature" whereas some would think "You are like an old uncle, old fashioned." LOL... Whatever it is, I'm always a deep thinker that would think more though there are times when I did make rash decisions too. Those who have known me for many years, I believe they would always know that I don't look like someone who is of my actual age, and I never think like what my age should do. Few days ago, there was a question in my mind. Would you actually look for a girl/boy that you like? Or would you actually look for a good wife/husband? 你会想找一个你喜欢的还是一个会是一位好丈夫好老婆的呢？Though the question of getting a good wife is still far away from me, but I have come to the point in my life that I don't wish to waste so much time of getting a new girlfriend, understanding, then ended up breaking up again. One after another, people only have the perspective that I am nothing but a playboy. However, who knows? ;) Maybe it's time to seriously realize that I should find a girl who is older than me? Hahaha... Oh my God in Heaven, I would just wait for the time to come then...

I could feel that, there are just a lots of thing gonna come into my life soon... It's not gonna be easy, but it's gonna be great... =) It's coming, real soon... Buck up David.. You set your goals and visions, and you are going to make them comes to past with the strength that God has given you... Gonna stop here then I guess..
I must try and get some sleep... Can't afford to fall sick... Gnite to dear people who cares for me who reads my blog =) God gonna bless you..